Loving someone from a distance

Sometimes in our relentless efforts to find the person we love, we fail to recognize and appreciate the people who love us. We missed out on so many beautiful things and simply because we allow our selves to be enslaved by our selfish concerns.

Not for the man of deeds and not for the man of words you will find a rewarding happiness but with the man who loves you more. The best lovers are those who are capable of loving from a distance, far enough to allow the other person to grow but never too far to feel the love deep within your being.

To let go of someone doesn't  mean you to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his own happiness and not expecting him to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person to be free, but it is also setting yourself free from all bitterness hatred and anger that are kept in your heart. Do not let the bitterness rare away from your faith and never allow pain to dishearten you, but rather you grow with wisdom in hearing it.

You may find peace in just loving someone from a distance not expecting anything in return. But be careful for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow. We  can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past but real peace and happiness comes only with open acceptance of what reality is today.

There comes in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and beautiful and we just find ourselves getting so intensely attracted to that person, this feeling soon becomes a part of our everyday life and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just friendship. We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves.

You dont have to forget someone you love. What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or feeling sorry for yourself. Believe me, you would be better off giving that dedication and love to someone more deserving. Don't let your heart run yourself, be sensible and listen to your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well. Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone  better is coming tomorrow. if you lose Love it doesn't mean that you failed in Love. Cry if you have to, but make sure that the tears wash away the hurt and the bitterness that the past has left you with.

P. S.

Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you and when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay for lifetime.

pintada at 39

Oh my God!...Its been a year since my last post, This ain't right, I've been missing a lot of  events, happenings and posts not to say... Well I couldn't be much happier now , knowing that there are people who view my blog even if its not updated and 'IN' (inaamag na ang blog ko huhuhu). I'd like to extend my grateful thanks for those who do visit and spend time reading here, although I dont get to write that much I visit other bloggers page whenever I can. There are times when we want to write but the thoughts are not there, (most of the time it happens to me hehehe) of course we want to share good thoughts so its just right that we condition our minds before sharing anything in our page. Its been a busy year and looking forward to the last quarter and Christmas (yehey) reminds me of  gifts (yooohoooo), but this is not what I wanted to blurt this time. I'd like to tell you that I have been spending so much time praying...Yes, and I really really am enjoying the peace that prayers bring. Its like you dont care what will happen tomorrow or the next day or for the rest of your life, because you know that your life is in God's loving care and He is alive in You. My everyday experience of God talking to me in the events of my daily life, is such a wonderful miracle that not everyone can decipher. Only when we talk back to God and live  and obey His commandments that we understand what He wants us to be. I can relate my spiritual experience to a topsy turvy confusion, which should not be so, thats why I'm so happy now that i can express the peacefulness and solemnity of God's presence in me. Lets just say, na kung dati palasimba ako (which I still am, and much more so ngayon) always present but something was missing,..and now, still I go to church but my heart goes with me, and everytime I hear every mass I feel that God is welcoming me and my heart opens to Him everytime. I have so much to pray for, and I wish and pray for everyone to see God open their hearts and welcome Him, its free, we only have to pray and pray and pray. We only have to look around us, see and understand what God is trying to say to us. Whatever you are doing right now, whoever you are talking to, whatever is in your mind, your thoughts, whatever sign you've seen, whatever it says, understand, whatever it is, consider that it is God talking to you. This month I turned 39 and I thank God for blessing me with blissful years with family, loved ones and friends, (looking forward for more heavenly years of happiness with God).

Wrapping up this post with a picture of God's creation. Hopefully I could visit again and write more...Shalom everyone and May the Good Lord shower you with more of His blessings and shield you with His love and protection.

Life ahead

I'm blogging about this because I want to go back again about this issue when time comes and I want to reflect on the decisions I made. It so hard for me to decide on such matters especially when family concerns are in hot spot,..so hopefully i will be blogging again about the end results very soon. Mom and dad talked to me about the issue on supporting papers for our immigrant petition, they were asking me to decide on the matter since I have to be doing it anyway, It would mean that I have to choose for myself which way I wanna go (that simple?) Cant I have everybody's opinion first? deciding means I have to choose Aunt ????  to be my sponsor and i would automatically giving away myself and live with her in San Francisco. It would also mean being away from dad, mom and my sisters. It doesnt matter much anyway, as long as I can have a stable job and a nice one to support my travels and visit them every now and then. But maybe Auntie would allow me to stay for a while in San diego and decide later if I want to leave them and live in san francisco. what I really want is for the good welfare of everyone, whats important is we each have our job and a place for shelter, this can be possible I know I have great expectations of my life ahead and its gonna be real great, I'm expecting to attract  an abundance of peace, joy, happiness, love, love love love and all the grateful things that we have to be thankful for.

memory full

Life threatening ang mga negative vibes na sumisiksik sa utak ko nitong mga nakaraang araw, minsan nakaka-irita na talaga, yung tipong kumukulo ang dugo ko kasi parang virus na bigla na lang nagpo- pop-up sa screen ng computer. Pilit ko itong nilalabanan at winawaglit sa aking mala-birhen na utak, kung pwede ko lang inumin yung zonrox na may bleach para tuluyan na itong lumisan sa aking tahimik at noise free na utak. Sana pwede buksan gaya ng computer at i-program, actually pwede naman talaga i-program ang ating mga utak, masyado nga lang itong madugo kung tutuusin, mahirap at minsan hindi talaga maiwasan na babalik-balikan mo ang past. sabi sa libro na nabasa ko, sikapin daw na mag-isip ng mga magagandang bagay na gustong mangyari sa buhay mo, at ito ay hindi imposibleng magkakatotoo at tunay na mangyayari. Subukan ko nga mag-isip na madami akong pera hehehe,…yayaman ako for sure. Sa pagbisita ko sa mga blog na sumisilaw sa aking kaisipan, sadya naman talagang kakaiba ang pinoy, napaka-talino at world class talaga, madami kang matututunan kung tungkol sa buhay buhay lang naman ang usapin, at sa dami ng nabibisita ko, (at hindi pa natatapos na nababasa) sa totoo lang, hindi ko na mawari kung ilang gigabyte ang pwede ma-accommodate ng ating utak, to the point na mag remind syo na (memory full) kaya ito ang nangyayari sa akin, ayaw ko naman kasing uminom ng zonrox para mawala ang mga negative na anik anik (hehehe) ewan ko halos lahat ng blog na nadadaanan ko nababasa ko yan) kaya ang nangyayari po ay napapa-blog hop na rin ako at nagblo-blog reading,..nawala nga yung mga negative anik-anik pero nag-uumapaw naman ang USB ng aking utak…memory full ika nga

hello world

With all that’s happening in our lives, sometimes we need to reflect & think. We are very lucky because words are expressed in different ways, sounds, music, art, movies or even lifetime situations that we never know is reaching to us unconsciously... what matters most is how we digest those words & events in order for us to rectify & make a change in our life

Traffic crawls, cell phone callsTalk radio screams at meThrough my tinted window I seeA little girl, rust red minivanShe's got chocolate on her faceGot little hands, and she waves at meYeah, she smiles at me

Hello worldHow've you been?Good to see you, my old friendSometimes I feel cold as steelBroken like I'm never gonna healI see a light, a little hopeIn a little girlHello world

Every day I drive byA little white churchIt's got these little white crossesLike angels in the yardMaybe I should stop on inSay a prayerMaybe talk to GodLike he is thereOh I know he is thereYeah, I know He's there

Hello worldHow've you been?Good to see you, my old friendSometimes I feel as cold as steelAnd broken like I'm never going to healI see a lightA little grace, a little faith unfurledHello world

Sometimes I forget what living's forAnd I hear my life through my front doorAnd I'll be thereOh I'm home againI see my wife, my little boy, little girlHello worldHello world

All the empty disappearsI remember why I'm hereJust surrender and believeI fall down on my kneesOh hello worldHello world Hello world

love affair

Here is a rundown of a movie which I love to watch occasionally,

Hoping, that as time is ticking he would find the path that would lead him home…& realize that a part of him is longing to be in harmony with love.

I remember a very romantic story of two strangers who met on a plane, the woman was engaged to be married, the man was also seeing someone, they met, they talked & it so happened that a storm was on their way, this was the story line and it was more favorable to get to know each other deeply. Having been stranded on a familiar place, the man invited the lady to go visit someone very dear to his heart. (would a man do this if he only met you for a day, or few hours perhaps?) The man introduced him as a fiancée (which is not). The old lady which they visited happens to adore the man (she is the grandmother by the way)

Here is the part of the story which I really loved (& loved watching). The grandmother was playing the piano, & the lady was humming along with eyes closed… & guess what? The man was admiringly looking at her ( oh!....how I love this scene…silly me) You know why I love it? It’s the hum, its beautiful, makes you fall in love over & over again…I know that you’ve all watched this movie in your lifetime, but let me get on with my version hehehe…

After a few days being stranded together, they parted ways with a promise of a date in the empire state building. Life goes on, & here comes the unforgettable day of their life…The man was there, but the lady wasn’t…

To conclude with the story, they ended up together after a few years had gone by. HOW? They accidentally met again one christmas evening, when the man visited her at home just for old times’ sake, but it got farther than that when the man saw “the painting” (he recognized the painting which he made & meant to give her on their date). In some way that painting which he painted led him to her, he remembered that he sold that painting to a restaurant owner,after he waited in the rain with no sign of the lady & with deep frustrations. Not that she didn’t come, but because she couldn’t make it, she met an accident (on that same day that they were to meet in the empire state building) which took both her legs, & for some reason, she couldn’t walk for the rest of her life. The man wasn’t aware why she didn’t come. Why she couldn’t come…only now he could see why…

Its an old story & its been told & written many times…By the way, this movie is entitled “LOVE AFFAIR” with Annette Bening & Warren Beatty as stars… A part of me relates to it…

MI 4 Ghost Protocol

Hayskul pa lang ako, patay na patay na ako sa tom cruise na ito. Maalala ko pa usong uso nung estudyante kami na pagkatapos ng exams namin, (prelims,midterm,semi-finals at finals) buhay na buhay yung mga video stores na malapit sa school namin paano ba naman kasi buong barkada gumagala at mag hire ng betamax at bala para manuod ng mga bagong pelikula (oo nung kapanahunan ko betamax pa kami nakakapanuod at sikat ka na nun pag ganun ang tambay at hang out ng barkada) Nung mga panahon na yun, nahumaling ako sa idol ko na ito at madalas maiinis ang barkada kasi ipagpipilitan ko na mag hire ng mga bala at pelikula nya hahaha... Naalala ko pa nga ang ibang barkada na masama ang loob at walang magawa kundi manuod na lamang (panu kasi divided equally ang bayad sa video store) sino ba naman ang matutuwang manuod ng isang veteran at baldado pa,(born on the 4th of july) syempre katatapos lang ng exam at least man lang comedy o love story ang trip ng barkada, halos lahat ng barkada boto naman sa napiling bala hehehe, dahil ako ang pasimuno nasunod na panuorin namin ang pelikula ni idol, Kaya tuwing manunuod ako ng pelikula ng aking idol sumasagi sa isipan ko ang mga experiences ko nung hayskul dahil wala naman talaga ako pinapalampas na pelikula nya, hangang sa akoy kolehiyo at nagka-work at tumanda hehehe paborito ko pa rin sya. hindi naman ako nabigo sa paghanga sa kanya dahil obvious naman ang galing nya sa mga blockbuster movies na mga pinagbibidahan nya . Ang hindi ko lang mawari sa kagwapuhan nya eh kung bakit di nya naipagkalat ang lahi nila ni NICOLE KIDMAN at kay KATIE HOLMES sya nagka-YURI....hehehe ibang usapin na yan...pero heto ang bago nyang pelikula na nasaliksik ko sa youtube, alam ko maraming nag-aabang nito...

An hour ago, a bomb blew up the Kremlin.

The president has initiated a ghost protocol

The entire IMF has been disavowed

Now I've been ordered to take you to Washington when they will hang in the Kremlin bombing and you and your team unless you were to escape after assaulting Brent and me.

But if anyone of your team is caught,

They will be branded terrorists, out to incite global nuclear war

TOM/ETHAN: So what happens now?

Your mission, should you choose to accept it...

GIRL: So what's the play?

TOM/ETHAN: Who are you really? Brent?

BRENT: We all have our secrets. . . ain't we? Ethan?

Okay now. . . remember blue is glue

TOM/ETHAN: And when its red?

DEAD

BRENT: You're not gonna make it!

TOM/ETHAN: You're not helping!

music by: EMINEM feat. PINK : WON'T BACK DOWN

hits the big screen on: December 2011